Huh? What time is it?

.

Believe it or not it is 4:41 a.m. and I am sitting here trying to type this blog entry.

Although I am a morning person and tend to do my best thinking earlier in the day, even for me this is a bit much.

Why you ask am I up so early?

First I was awake (I don’t usually have any trouble sleeping but this morning I lay in bed looking at the ceiling) and secondly it’s the only time to write yesterdays blog entry.

Just so you know, I am not the obsessive compulsive type.  I can blow things off with the best of you.  Seriously.

But sometimes in life you there are things within that command a bigger “yes” than the desire to say “no”.

I don’t fully know why, but this blog is one of those things in my life.

I am embarrassed to say this but writing this blog twice a week has been the most consistently disciplined thing I have ever done for this long of period.

Here’s the most amazing thing to me… really amazing.

As I mentioned, writing this blog is probably the most consistently disciplined thing I’ve ever done and… and I don’t even know for sure if anyone is reading it or getting anything out of it.

I know there are a couple of family members who pop in and out occasionally and a friend or two will remember to visit occasionally.

I have virtually nothing that validates my writing this blog.

My next statement will be very unusual for me.

I’m quite impressed with myself.  I am pretty good at being hard on myself and not good at patting myself on my back.

It is easy for me (like most people) to do the things that get you a lot of compliments and validate your efforts.

I mean think about it… why invest so much time (or even getting up so early) to do something that seems to have no value to anyone?

Why?

Because sometimes we are called to do things in our lives that seem to make no sense.  I believe that.

Writing this blog may not help or be important to anyone else… but it is something I am to do.

Maybe it is just for me and my own growth.  If so… fine.

I think everyone in their life at some point in time is called – called to do, go or be.  It could be all in the same.

As I said, I have no idea if this blog is helpful or meaningful to anyone.  Or, if anyone will be any better by having read my ramblings.

But I do know this.  I am better for it.

You see, responding to a call isn’t always going to change the world but it will invariably change you.

See you Thursday.

Ciao.

Leave a comment