A bottle in the ocean

My first blog entry.  Weird.

I kinda feel like an obscure speck somewhere in the universe putting a message in a bottle and throwing it into the cyber sea and wondering if anyone on a distant shore will by chance catch a glimpse of it and read the scribbled message.

Apparently you have happened upon this bottle and have read this far.  What now?  You can casually toss it to the side and continue cyber surfing or does something stir your curiosity.

Something intriguing that stays your attention.

Side Note*

Have you ever noticed how odd it is that for no apparent reason something seemingly ordinary stirs something below the surface?  It touches and moves you and we don’t know why.  We sense it and we tilt our head like a dog hearing a strange noise.

Pay attention.  It’s a gift.  Hopefully the mystery draws you to explore.

*Side notes are just random thoughts that hit me in mid sentence.  So I’ll throw them in.

Back to the cyber bottle… You may be wondering about the person on the other end of the message.  Who is this lost soul in cyber space?

Well… I’m just an ordinary guy.  Nothing too special… I’m a nice person, pretty good sense of humor (albeit weird) and insecure enough to worry too much about what people think.  I feel deeply, laugh freely, and usually keep a lot inside.  Don’t ask me why, I don’t really know… I just do.

I’m getting ready for a journey.  This is not your typical trip with suitcases, tourist brochures and cheesy sunglasses.  The journey is into the unknown, beyond the self I know and this blog is primarily the vehicle.

The journey is beyond the safe confines of the walled garden of self.  The familiar, safe, cozy world I live in.  But my comfortable world has been disturbed.  Something (or someone) is calling from beyond the wall.  My head is tilted and my curiosity peaked.

I’m not sure where I’m going.  I’m just going.  All I know is that I’m supposed to go on this walk.  Don’t ask me how I know… I just know.

The stir has been deep.  Something inside wanting out.  Not aggressive… more restless.   Something slowly waking up and beginning to poke at the confines of it’s environment.  Like someone cautiously pushing on a wall in a creepy old house to determine the strength and stability.

Feeling stirred is a gift.  There is a difference between being stirred and being troubled about something.  Invite the stirring to occur.  Let it grow, let it take shape, let it push and struggle its way to the surface.  It has to come out from within; I cannot get to it from the outside.  All I can do is nurture, invite and remove the obvious barriers that limit.

All I know is that something is stirring… and that’s a good thing.

The stirring has been the catalyst for this journey.  Anyone want to join me?  It would be nice to have company but I’m content going it alone.

Maybe your first step is to tag along for a while to see what it’s about.  Maybe you’ll just pop in every now and then to see where I am.  That’s ok too.  Whatever you decide to do is fine with me.

I want to ask… have you been feeling something begin to stir from the depths?  If so, I encourage you to be a bit adventurous.

Maybe I’ll see you on Thursday.  Ciao.

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  1. Thanks for joining me. I will enjoy the company.

  2. Hi Jerry!
    I loved your blog. I, too, have felt a stirring for the past few years which has prompted me to several authors that I never knew existed like Watchman Nee, Derek Prince, Smith Wigglesworth and others. I was led to them, as I would have never found them on my own and the stirring for me has been more of just a following and a sense that it is what I am supposed to be doing. Now, I am being led to check into going back to school – possibly in biblical studies of some sort. I feel “something” deep within my spirit. Like something big is on the horizon- I feel like the past few years have all been preparation and tests; yet I do not know exactly what I am heading into – I am just following – step by step. I look forward to hearing where your blog takes you as well!

  3. Congratulations…you’re the first blog I’ve really ever read and paid attention to. Glad your sharing your journey. Transformation happens when people are vulnerable. Way to be real.

  4. Whoa…this is deep! Y’know why I’ve enjoyed your classes vso much, because you do indeed GO DEEPER than what’s on the surface. It’s cool. It’s refreshing…so many people out there are safely perched on the surface. I’m looking forward to more! Thank you for putting yourself out there!

  5. I am anxious to see where you go and to listen to the rattling and see what is stirred up. To approach it and listen to what it is saying. Looking forward to reading more of your post,

  6. This sounds and feels like a great idea and I want to journey with you if God is willing. I have enjoyed your “Going Deeper” class for a while and it always lifts me up just when I need it and I feel drawn to whatever it is you are doing with this blog. Actually this is also the first blog I have read at all. lol. I will see you on the 13th. God bless us all.

  7. jessica tilley hodgman

    yes! i too will look forward to where this takes us. i love this about the feeling that there’s something outside the ‘wall’:
    ‘don’t ask me how… i just know.’

    i fear that many of us do know something similar and many of us ignore it! this is a good reminder that we have an option to respond, to be something other than passive…

  8. Wonderful…I’m immersed.

  9. Think I will tag along. Am interested in where you are going.

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